Rara

Some things we find in our lives make us feel weird, and some of them do it in a good way. :)

Why you should play old games

There are basically 2 main reasons:
1) You don't need the last hardware technology to play them.
2) You can buy them in platinum edition or even better prices (by Steam, for example).

So, you can play great games in you a bit old computer just spending a not so much money. And some old games really deserve to be played.
Some time ago I found Clive Barker's Jericho for a really good price (4€). Some time ago I played Undying (also based in Barker's stories) and I really loved this game, so I thought that for only 4€ I could take the risk. But I found a game better than I expected. The story is not as awesome as Undying's one, but it's also really interesting. I like its gameplay (team shooter) and graphics, and the characters.
Anyway, it's not a 8/10 game, but it's much more game than what it costs. So, it totally recommend this game.

Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle

You can't get the position and speed of an electron without altering the stats (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uncertainty_principle)

That sometimes happens in human relationships. You can't always ask to somebody or speak about a problem with that person, and don't expect to change his behaviour.

For instance: imagine that your mate has a behavior you don't like. Maybe the way he/she laughs. If you talk to him/her, he/she could try to stop laughing in that way to please you. But that could make your mate unhappy, because had to change the way he/she it for you.

Does our happiness deserve to change other people?
Does a relationship deserve to be broken when you feel you need to change your mate's personality?

As usually in life, you can't answer yes or no. It depends of the circumstances.

My wished job

Fortunatelly, I don't need to job. When my dad died he left me enough money to live confortable for some years without any need. I have a house, no mortgages and I don't owe money to anybody. But I can't be doing nothing. I desire to work, to spend my time doing something and my brain finding and fixing problems. Anyway, I can't just wait and see how my bank account decreases. I love starting in a new place, in a different culture or learning another language. I love feeling I'm adapting to a different circumstances.

That's why I learnt flash, to make games while I was unemployed. But it's not enough. I want a job. I want to feel I'm useful for a task.

So, how is my whised job? Those are my preferences (just supposing I was able to choose them)

1- Working for a state: if you earn $xxxxx working for a company, make sure you are making a group of rich people to earn much more money thanks to your work. And those people don't care about the workers they have. They only care about benefits, regardless the environment, the countries they are spoiling or who are making poor.
So, working for a state or country, the benefits of my work go to all the people of that country. Anyway, even working for a country, I prefer not to do it for their army. Armies tends to follow the interest of the rich people (and so wars do too). About how many bankers or executives of weapon or oil companies have you ever heard dying in a war for the last 40 years?

2- If I had to work for a company, I'd pick a cooperative company (owned by the workers - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cooperative) or at least an small company that cares for the people working for it.

I feel lucky

In the life we'll find a lot of choices, and your future will depend of them. But you can't choose the parents you have had.

I feel lucky for my parents. I can't image others better that the ones I had. They taught me to be the person I am. And the most important lesson I learnt from them was that I never must assume something as true: Critical thinking (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Critical_thinking).

Whe Madonna went chill out

And then she did, for my taste, her best LP by far.

γνῶθι σεαυτόν

Those words are written in the entry to the Delphi temple. It means "know yourself".

Who am I? Well, that's the big question. I've spent most of my live trying to discover the answer. And I can proudly say that, the more I discover about myself the better I feel.

I think that there are 2 ways to find happyness:
- Taking the blue pill: The easiest one is living without any care, just being said what you have to do and trusting in if you do what you are being told, you won't have to worry for anything. You'll only see yourself as they say you are. That's basically what Mark Renton said.
- Taking the red pill: Facing what other people consider as matter of fact, and discover the person you are by yourself. That implies don't trusting in everything you hear, and make yourself questions. That way will make you live in a world full of lies, but will you guide to a real knowledge of yourself. And once you know your real needs, you'll be able to control them.

I also think that, if you want to know yourself, you must also know other people. They way they are, will help you to discover parts of yourself.

Some time ago, I started to wonder why I write here. Why I put here my deepest thoughts. In a place where almost nobody knows about me. There are only 3 people in the world knowing the real name of the person behind this words. From those 3, only 1 knows about this blog, and that I don't think that person has some interest into reading this.

So, why showing my real me (my Ghost, as Masamune Shirow would call it) to people I don't even know?

A few months ago, I discovered a person and we became friends. That person was very shy, and never liked to talk about herself. But she had a blog where to writte all her thoughts. I thought that, doing that, she was balancing the need to connect with other people. Sometimes is easier opening your ghost to unknown people rather than the people you know.

So I discovered that I was doing the same.

That's how other people help us to know ourselves. Sometimes we see in the other people things that we can't see in ourselves.